March is a month of struggling to be remembered.

The pandemic has always started the day with a sigh. I woke up, and remained still in my bed; unmoving  —   just as my thoughts, my eyes, my soul. It felt as if there was a knot in my stomach formed by the mere thought of yesterday's norm. I continue to miss everyone and everything, the fragments tucked under the blankets of my soul  — the setting that has been drastically changed. I was left dealing with an existential slump with mere virtual interactions on a daily basis. "Was it meant to be this empty for months, or perhaps years?" I wondered.

Just as I thought when things would get better after March, the isolation period lingered much longer. The one-month isolation did not go as planned. The schools were still closed and I was left with no choice but to continue with distance learning. The first half of the school year went just fine. I even got to learn in the comforts of my room, still living with the hope that online classes will come to an end. As time went by, unfortunately, adjusting my whole life and routines to the "new normal" started to feel like torture. Responsibilities just kept piling up — there were more stress and melancholic sentiments than the learning I grasped. Learning back then was much like a chore, intending to only pass school works on time and not learn anything at all. It was surely draining, it takes a toll on the mental health of students, and even the kid eager for academic validation would eventually lose their ardent desire for things they were once passionate about.

As cliche as it sounds, there was and will always be a silver lining in times like this — the sigh that comes after the breakdowns and burnouts. My friends, which I treasure the most helped me in coping up. They were like the whisper of relief I arm myself with on Sunday mornings when waking up seemed the least possible. Their mere presence rekindled the lost enthusiasm and optimism I have in me in the face of the terrible pandemic, allowing me to look forward to a brighter future. Without them, I wouldn't have the urge to continue existing and to fight against the struggles that had me in a chokehold. 


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       Yu, N. (2022). Study with me . Pinterest. https://pin.it/6DSvFD3





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  1. Jeziah TabisulaNovember 13, 2022 at 8:53 AM

    I'm so proud of you for handling that challenging scenario. You are brave, and may you maintain your optimistic view under all situations.

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